"Living For God Through a Woman's Perspective" cont.

Speaker 0:11

Hi, welcome to V.E.N.T.101, Vocalizing Every Noted Topic with a Christian twist. I'm June Bryant, your host, and we welcome you to our podcast. Our vision is to win souls to Christ and to help those who know him by giving them a fresh new perspective on Christian living and reading God's Word. Our mission is to biblically educate people while growing in their Christian walk by answering questions that they are uncomfortable to ask in a church-like setting. You can find us wherever you get your podcast. Please like and subscribe. You can also visit us on YouTube, Instagram, or on our website vent-101.com, where you can leave any questions or comments that you may have. Thank you. Well, let me get started. Good afternoon, everybody. It's June in the room. We're gonna get started on part two, and I'm gonna have everybody go around the room and introduce themselves. We were talking about chewing on this candy, fam. So I'm gonna have uh our uh co-host to good afternoon, everybody.

Speaker 1 1:52

Yeah, right. I'm so sorry, y'all. Anyway, I'm just glad to be here. And once again, I'm just so glad to be in the presence of these beautiful women of God right here. It really encouraged me. I'm done.

Speaker 5 2:15

Around the room, baby, around the room. Oh, we're going around the room. We're not gonna okay. Um, what are we doing again? Just introducing yourself. Oh, okay. It was the candy too. We got a lot going on, don't we? Okay, my name is Jackie. I also just inherited a nice cool nickname, Jazzy Jackie.

Speaker 2:34

Jazzy Jackie.

Speaker 5 2:36

And uh, yeah, I'm happy to be here um with these beautiful ladies. As she stated, this is uh definitely an elevating experience for me, and I'm just gracious uh that I was selected and chosen to be in this seat. Amen.

Speaker 3 2:49

I'm Victoria. Um I am learning so much. I love it. Um definitely the Holy Spirit is in this room. So I definitely thank thank you for having me.

Speaker 3:01

Amen.

Speaker 2 3:03

I'm Etay. Everybody know me as Tay. Um, I've been here several times, and I always enjoy the ladies. Amen. Or whoever's sitting on the board whenever I come in here today, it's the ladies.

Speaker 4 3:15

So the ladies is doing it. I'm Keisha. Once again, this is my first time here, and I'm glad to be surrounded by these beautiful women. Amen.

Speaker 3:24

Welcome, ladies. Yeah, and FYI, I have to give my brother Kenny a shout out. Y'all know that Victoria is Kenny's daughter. So I know he's somewhere listening and being nosy. Oh, and for the record, ladies, I we had a couple of comments, uh, but I didn't see them. So please don't stop making your having your comments. And I'm gonna do my best to try to see them. I'm in the right area, so but anyway, we're gonna get started on the uh conversation. We was talking about, or you and Pat Jackie was talking about motives and ugly motives. Uh so do you all wanna carry that conversation on? Because that's a good one to have about the motives that women may have, even using the gift of discernment.

Speaker 4 4:26

I'm just waiting for place now without a lot of things.

Speaker 5 4:28

So we can roll play. So tell me something. Tell me something good.

Speaker 1 4:33

What the Lord tell you to tell me. I can't I can tell you my deal too.

Speaker 5 4:59

Now I'm confused. Now I don't even feel comfortable being here.

Speaker 1 5:03

Now I don't Well you need to listen because if you don't learn But it just don't, you know that doesn't make sense.

Speaker 5 5:17

Why would why would God say something like that? Why would So pause? So she's the deliverer, she's in discernment, she's the one heavier in Christ than me. Yes, I am the one who's seeking after God, who has my cup empty and ready for it to be filled. I have a grateful heart. I come with high expectation of what God's gonna do, and then she shows up on the scene. You at church. I'm at church. Oh no, yeah. We're in the lobby. We're in the lobby. Service just went forth. I just came from the altar and got prayer, and I feel real good. And then here comes the messenger and said, God and is what God done said, and the spirit ain't the live, but yet I don't feel empowered, I don't feel encouraged, I don't feel refueled, I don't feel enlightened, I don't feel warm, I feel rejected, I feel sad, I feel downtrodden, I feel like I want to question things. My discernment is a little bleak now because I thought I had discernment too. The difference between the two of us is that one of us had an ulterior motive inwardly to try to destroy before the actual message of God really even got to me. Because they could see that if the message did get to me through the appropriate messenger that it's supposed to be getting uh sent to me through, that that's gonna empower me and encourage me and put me in a place further, maybe than where they are at. So then it boils down to character. Bad fruit does corrupt good character. However, when we're carrying those things inwardly in our hearts, only God can do can see those things. So whereas even though I want to receive and I want to I want to get everything that God has for me, I'm on fire for God. He also got to give me some wisdom to be able to know who to make a deposit, who can make a deposit in me and who cannot. And oftentimes we've been taught and raised in church that it's because the head pastor done told you, the prophet of the house done told you, apostle such and such done told you. It got to be the lie. It has to be the truth. It has to be the truth because they have the title that walks in that gift and calling, and you are just not there yet. You you're just sitting, you just came to Christ. You don't know much. So let me try to deposit things into you from where I'm coming from or how I had to get it. Not let me you let not let God use you for the right thing, for the right instrument. The instrument is contaminated, but we don't know that unless we we trust the God inside of us. That's right. Whether it's a title or no title, we have a choice to regurgitate everything that's spoken over us that does not line up with our discernment and the will of God and what God truly says. If you've ever had a visitation from the Lord, oh, you know when you show up on the Sunday. But there are many in the congregation with us that are seekers like you coming, seekers like you, that are P R-E-Y on instead of P-R-A-Y.

Speaker 1 8:20

That's true. And please listen, audience, because uh we did the role play and all, but this is a great message for everybody that's out there listening.

Speaker 8:28

This is some real stuff, even for seasoned Christians.

Speaker 1 8:31

Yeah, and and this is part of the warfare, the spiritual warfare that we have to face. Yeah, so continue on. I like that.

Speaker 5 8:38

There's uh to piggyback off what you said, you say you've been in the same church. I I've been a been around the world and ah, yeah, yeah. And I finally got planted. Finally got planted, and my spiritual mother, I went to uh it was a prayer breakfast that I ran into her. A prayer breakfast, technically, I I did not have access to because all the tickets were sold out. I woke up Saturday morning feeling bad. I said, I really want to be at that prayer breakfast because I know it's gonna be awesome. Got a phone call. Hey, I got an extra ticket. Can you meet? I'm on the way. Half a shoe on, half a shoe off, put a wig on. And I got there. I didn't even care what I had on. I didn't care because I when you are in desperation and you are searching and you are hungry, you don't care. You're gonna go through leaps and bounds to get there to get exactly what you need. This lady had done walk the floors and was touching and laying hands and prophesying, and I'm just sitting there like, well, I guess this wasn't the right breakfast. I suppose it's been in me and Lord, you told me to come and I was gonna get something. And I have felt so left out, I felt so overlooked. I have been crying and praying and worshiping and was just, you know, the weeping woman, as they they they call me the weeping woman or Hannah at church. They call that's what my nickname is at church, Hannah, the weeping warrior. And so I'm in this place. I know at the church that I was at, I knew my my my time there was over. Had a hard time with doing that because I made some nice good sisters in that church, but I knew I had to leave them. Struggled with it for about a year, and baby, I got towed up the whole time. I sat there that year and did not leave when God told me to leave. Toe up. I'm talking about I got towed up so bad, I didn't even know if I even wanted to go to church no more. Okay, yeah, it was bad. I got to that prayer breakfast and she had done all her work. I'm thinking the prayer breakfast over. I said, Well, I might as well just get my stuff. Maybe I'll get a word next time. And I was at the door. She said, No. She said, You come back. She said, You thought God forgot about you, didn't you? Wow. Man, when I tell you it was the the one word is what it took. And it shifted my entire with God. They were so mad impressed about how I was dressed. And I'm like, Lord, I got on stockings. I don't have on nothing revealing. I got my damn thing is buttoned up to the collar. I don't got on no long nails. Like, what is the problem? Got accused of flaunting. Now, mind you, we're in church. I got accused of flaunting because they gave me to Mike to walk around the church to pray. But I got accused of flaunting or standing in front of someone's husband and being a distraction. Oh wow. Oh wow. Oh wow. Listeners out there, because I know you're out there. I know you've experienced it. Oh wow, is right. Because guess what? Your husband was the last thing on my mind. Right.

Speaker 2 11:21

He wasn't nowhere on the radar. And the thing is, if people are in the spirit, they're not going to be able to do that. They can't even see their husband.

Speaker 5 11:30

But that's where why I said sometimes us is we can have gifts as women, and that it intimidates people.

Speaker 3 11:38

Yes.

Speaker 5 11:38

I'm a warrior. Didn't know how much of a warrior I was until I ran into my spiritual mother and she began to prune them gifts and train them up. Yep. Can't tell me nothing now. I'm bald as a lion. Because God has put that fire, just like how I just prayed. And what happened? I've been drinking water. I've been drinking stuff since before we got here. Didn't get choked up. I was told early on the enemy hates my voice. He hates. So the moment that God backs that voice up with power and authority, yeah, it shakes some stuff. Like, what is that? I don't really know her, but what in the world is happening? Why is when she's talking, stuff is going on? I didn't ask for that, but it's there. So instead of trying to suppress it, I walk into it. That's why I don't care if you're an apostle, pastor, preacher, teacher, whoever you are, if it's not in alignment or God is not sealed, because most times when God comes to you, He's giving words of confirmation. He's already told you. He's trying to get you to see, yeah, I said it. Yeah. You don't believe me. You don't believe me, but yes, that was me that told you that. He has to use another vessel and another voice and avenue to get that through to you.

Speaker 12:42

That's the key. Confirmation. Yeah. Don't let nobody just come and I don't care if they in the church been a devout Christian for 200 years. Don't let them come and tell you nothing that you don't have confirmation about. Because the Holy Spirit will tell you. Yes, right. If you don't get confirmation, I'm not saying discard it, but don't pay it no attention. Put a pin. It might be for the future. You know, I'm not taking away from that the person, but just like with you all skit, that woman, this pet, you ain't no Holy Spirit told her to tell you that. That's right. People be prophe lying. That's right. I want to go to the next one.

Speaker 1 13:31

Can I read a scripture real quick to line up? Let me say this first, please. Okay, go here.

Speaker 13:35

Uh, good morning, Rose. Uh, we getting the the messages. Uh and Antoine peeked in and said, whenever people profess those statements are from the spirits, make sure that you pray about revel to for revelation to make sure it's in God's alignment. And Rose made the statement that I done did the same thing and got whooped a long time. I guess you stayed in the wrong place. But go ahead, Pat. I'm sorry.

Speaker 1 14:06

I was gonna read in 1 John 4, it tells us what to do. You said uh get confirmation. Confirmation is God's word. Yes, so if you know 1 John 4 and 1 tells us, try the spirit, lest it be of God or not. You're gonna know. So if you if if two people have the same gifting, yeah, that other person gonna know. Yeah. That if if it's of God. And then, you know, I've done that too, and I was polite. I said, no, God didn't say tell me, tell me that. Okay. So thank you. And you know, and I and I'll walk on, you know what I'm saying? But that's but you have to know. Yeah, uh, try the the spirit, whether it be of God. Yeah, you know, uh, because people do come to the to you in the wrong motive, and they do want to cut you down, they they want to stunt your growth because they want to look bigger. That's right, that's right. And a lot of times with with us, we're jealous of each other's gifts. I need y'all's gifts. I need you to tell me what thus said the Lord prophesies it so I can get myself together. Yeah, see, and we don't want to humble ourselves, yes, you know, especially women these days, quote unquote. Yeah, women's live messed us up, y'all. I'm telling you, did you know, because now we don't want to submit. You can't tell me nothing. Yeah, so it's it's this is this is uh really broad right here. Yeah, you know, this is really broad, but thank you, thank you for bringing all that out, too. Yes, help us, oh God.

Speaker 15:39

What are your some of your biggest pressures or expectations you feel as a Christian woman at your age? Oh sorry, don't let it come up.

Speaker 2 15:54

I heard it all because we came from all the right now. Don't let it come out.

Speaker 3 16:00

I think when we are Christian women, everybody expects us to be perfection. Yes, it's not a perfection thing, like the only perfect person is Jesus. Like, and so we can try, we try our hardest, but at the end of the day, like I'm not perfect, and if I make a mistake, God does not condemn me. And I think that's right that we make mistakes and we start to shame ourselves and start to look at ourselves. Yeah, we are our own worst enemy. Like we start to look at ourselves and be like, Well, God wouldn't want me to do this, or he wouldn't want me to do that, which is true, but like God is not up in heaven, like I didn't see you didn't make it all the way there. He's like, daughter, I see you. Yes, I see you. Your heart you trying. Yes, you trying, like, like this. I heard an analogy. Um, at Bible said the other day, it's like when a baby starts walking and they start walking and they fall, you don't say, Oh, you shouldn't have failed. You encourage them to get back up and keep going. And like that analogy really stuck with me because when you think about the God that we knew previous, it's always a pressure thing. It's always like God is looking down on you and you ain't doing it right, and he's looking at you and pointing his finger at you. And it's like, no, God is love. Yes, he is. You know, he is loving, he's patient, he's kind, he's kind, he's all the things that we we wish we were when somebody else makes us mad too. It's just like I think that is the number one thing for me, is like knowing that if I do slip up, I'm not trying to, I'm trying to live right. But even when you think about the small things that we don't think about seeing, or like just looking at something and comparing it to something else, or like just your thoughts. Yes. Your thoughts. It's a sin already in your thoughts, whether you see it or not. It's already a sin. Yeah, we have to just realize when we do do that, we have to cast down those thoughts and ask him for help. Thank you, Lord. Thank you. So I think that's like just the perfection and knowing that I can call on him whenever. Yeah, um, and and knowing that he's gonna be there no matter what. So yeah, sorry.

Speaker 8 18:12

She said that came from the I think the pressure for me at this great big age is people expecting for me not to live as a Christian.

Speaker 2 18:29

Um at my age, you know, I'm single and all that. I think the biggest pressure on me is the in and out, in and out of the Lord ministries. Y'all know that's what I call it. People, the guys who have been trying to date me, a lot of them were in the church. But the pressures of the church was on them. So they try and make me be okay with things that I'm not okay with. And the daily fight for me is Lord, your will not mine. As he's convicting me and showing me, like, you don't have to accept anything. That's right. Your worth is more than what they're doing. They are not men of God if they're leading you astray. So for me, for me, having what I want is coming with the price. Yeah, and it's just staying true to God and myself. Yes, ma'am. So the thing is for at 49, wanting to get back out here in this life, I'm not a worldly woman. I've never been there. But now that I respect God so big, it's just certain things I can't do. Can't do it. So I guess the answer for that is just still being the woman that I am in God. And if they can't accept the woman and the things that come with the woman of God, they gotta go. So just being true to myself with God right here. So it ain't no moving me no more.

Speaker 19:59

What you said just smoke volume, yeah. Because I apply it to my life, even at 65. Yeah, they be still trying to holler. Okay. But I love Jesus. I love Jesus too much to compromise. Yes, don't do that. That's the key. Yes.

Speaker 2 20:24

And you done did it wrong. I'm not gonna even say did it all the way wrong. But when you knew better and you didn't do better, I would rather not know him than to know him and still be out here just doing it my way. I've been hard-headed long enough. And the thing is, my granny used to tell me, I went through it so you don't have to. So now when I look at things as life is, I'm like, you know what? Thank you, God. When people come my way and God is showing me like that ain't for you, the discernment meets me. Even if I listen to the conversation, God already told me, uh-uh. Five minutes into the conversation. Uh-uh. So I'm just thanking God that even in my singleness, yes, that I'm not settling for nothing more than what God is saying. Thank you, Jesus. So yeah. It's been a battle.

Speaker 21:12

But it's somebody out there, but you are with the war.

Speaker 2 21:15

That's right. It was a battle maybe two years ago. Now I'll just be I'm no nonsense.

Speaker 3 21:21

But the thing is, is that sometimes when God wants, not God, but any of me will put distractions in front of you. Temptations. Temptations in front of you. You got this six-foot dark chocolate bowl. We like put it in front of you, but you like, okay, everybody like the topic. Okay. And then next thing you know, you like ha ha all the way over here in the closet. Steve, that's somebody pulling you away from God, they are not for you. Yeah, they are not for you.

Speaker 2 22:09

I had a real life situation. I'm gonna just be transparent with y'all. Where I had known a guy my whole entire life, and um, I've been single for over a year, and um he wanted to date me, but he wasn't honest about his situation, and I liked him because I've known him forever. It's a friendship there. Yeah, and then I find out that he's in a situation that he claims, you know, they do the claim that they want to they want to get out of, but it's not done yet. And for a minute, I was just listening because I'm a I'm a herder, I'm gonna hear the lies. But at any point, um one day I didn't hear from him, and then it went from one day to a week, and then all of a sudden, the phone call started again. Y'all know me, I am no nonsense with people. I will know you today and never know you after today. But for some reason, God needed me to see that, and my feelings was hurt. And I told y'all when I came to that conference on that in particular day, I had got asked to go on a trip with this person. And the Holy Spirit reminded me of what I had gone through in my marriage. No, you ain't went all the way, but you kind of considering it. And all night I battled in the spirit with I'm crying. I woke up in the morning, I had forgot all about the conference. I told y'all that. I was all over the place. I mean, and everything. And then all of a sudden, when I woke up in the morning, I was like, I can't go. I can't go. This is not who I am. Yes, baby, I ain't desperate. I don't even like people. Why would I do myself like this? And then while I'm saying that, because I was like, God, you gotta show me something. Here comes the conference coming across my phone. Girl, I got dressed so fast.

Speaker 24:09

And all I could say was, thank you, God.

Speaker 2 24:12

Thank you, Jesus. Because when you are doing the right thing, yeah, that tall bow legged, yeah, the temptation is always there.

Speaker 5 24:22

Yeah, so every time I tried to do good, evil's always present.

Speaker 2 24:25

Maybe it was right there with a pay-for-trip. But you just gotta be stronger than it. I thank God for the Holy Spirit, as big as he is in my life, to keep grabbing my little horse. But sometimes I be want to I be want to just enjoy life. Yeah, but when you do things that way, free will ain't free. Come on.

Speaker 24:52

But I would rather him smack me down right now so I don't have to pay for it a week from now. So that's how the enemy dangles. No, baby, he's right.

Speaker 3 25:00

And him because it's so. I'm sorry, when you think about it, you have to think about, we have to think about the things that we do. I know I have to like think about what I'm doing and ask myself, like, is this really worth Jesus dying on the cross for? Yeah. Like for real, for real. Like for real, for real.

Speaker 2 25:17

Like I should ask that question. I'll probably think quick.

Speaker 3 25:23

Like every single thing that we do, if you just think about, and it ain't no pretty picture. The way he was beat on the way to the cross. Come on, that's all of that. Like, you have to, is it really worth what I'm about to do? Yes. No, like it's really not. So it's like that one little thought. Be like, okay, I guess I'm gonna not. I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go for the team.

Speaker 4 25:51

He said, right next to me, too. Nope.

Speaker 25:56

Amen. Rose said he will put a distraction no matter what it is. Yes, not just a relationship. Yeah, that's true. And Robert Swint says, that's my sis. Talk about it. Hey, brother. Love you. June, can I ask a question?

Speaker 1 26:12

No, go ahead. I have a question for you ladies. Um for your spiritual life right now, where it is. Would you say you would be more like Mary or Martha? For that um, when when uh Mary laid at the feet of Jesus, Jesus, and Martha was getting things prepared. What would you say? Would you be more like Mary or more like Martha? Remember, Mary chose the better part, but who to say that Martha didn't do the do a part two? You know what I'm saying?

Speaker 5 26:48

I would say I'm more like Martha. Me too. Preparer. I am a preparer. I okay. I really don't necessarily uh know where it came from, per se, besides my parents, but hospitality should be my middle name. Um I'm always a servant, um, even without being axed. So I jump in if you need help with whatever it is. Uh I am a laborer at heart. Um, I will get in the trenches with you. If we gotta kick shoes off and get ugly, I snatch eyelashes and ponytails off. So I'm really um, I really do have the heart of a servant to serve and to be of service in any capacity. Um and Martha definitely embodied that. That's why uh when God, when they when Jesus went ahead and got crucified, he said, Mary, don't you weep? Tell Martha not to moan. She was moaning from a pain that she may not have could have put in words, but the sound connected that pain to where God even heard it and said, Yeah, I can feel you, I can hear you, yet I'm still here. Don't cry, don't moan. Get back to work. So that's me. I'm going to do it.

Speaker 3 28:03

That's a good way to put it. I would say I'm married right now in my in my um walk because I just want to know more. That's it. It's the knowledge that I'm gaining that really is really renewing my mind. Yes. Um, it's really a transformation that is happening within me and my spirit. So, like where I am right now, currently in my walk is more of a, you know, I Lord, let let me let me in. Give me the knowledge, give me everything that I need to continue to make the right decision in the moment. Because it is a moment-to-moment decision. Yes, man. It can be like, I'm thinking this way, and in a split second, I can be thinking another way, but just renewing that in my mind daily. Yes, God. Um, spending time in my scriptures to just really uh like just really get what the Holy Spirit wants me to get from it for whatever God is calling me to do is really, really where I am. Amen.

Speaker 4 29:06

For me, yeah.

Speaker 2 29:08

I think for me, it's it's kind of sometimes both. Yeah. Mary trusted God. Yeah. And I think at the season that I'm in, I've been preparing for where I am right now. So I had been Martha for a long time, but now I can just lay at the foot of the mind and just let me everything that he's doing is just falling down on me. As I speak, I just feel the change because a big change came about real fast. And it was because I knew better. But I tell y'all, my favorite line is it's one thing to talk about God. Yeah, it's another thing to respect him. Respect is a very different place because we walk and we say, Oh, I love God, and you know, the in and out of the Lord ministries Monday through Saturday, and then Sunday, all of a sudden we back in God. Yeah. So with Mary just laying at his feet and believing and receiving, Lord the works, I have worked to be able to trust him the way that I do. So I don't worry because I have prepared not to have them no more. Yeah, I have arrived some kind of way. I don't even know how I got here. Thank you, Lord. But every day, thank you, Lord, I feel the change. And this is why I'm able to sit at tables with younger young ladies so I can pour on y'all and I can listen to y'all, and y'all can pour on me because this is how we learn. That's right. That's right. Amen. Beautiful.

Speaker 30:39

But it's a blessing to be uh I'm gonna speak for me and Pat. Come on, it's a blessing to be sitting at this table with y'all. It is because we're learning from you. Yes, and I'm so thankful that God instilled that in me to be more receptive. Yeah, because like you said, Victoria, we're getting pruned every day.

Speaker 3 31:08

Yeah, every day.

Speaker 31:09

You don't stop getting pruned until you close your eyes. That's right.

Speaker 3 31:14

That's right.

Speaker 31:15

Not unless you're so full of yourself that you think you know it all. Yeah, that's right. You know what I mean? Because there's some of us that are out there listening that are so full of themselves where I've been there, done that, and you can't tell me nothing. You're too young. Yeah. But I just praise God for you all. Amen. We gotta pray.

Speaker 1 31:34

I praise God for all of y'all too, and and I just love the answers because I want to say this. Um, I was um judged so much when I gave my life to the Lord. Yeah. So I was the I'm sorry, y'all. I was the Martha, like you said, for a long time. Yeah. Because nobody reached out to me and told me that you need to study Jesus, that you need to have a prayer life, that you need to fast sometimes. I didn't have that. Mary had that. But I want to tell the audiences don't put Martha down. No, don't ever put it down. Don't do that. No. Don't do that. Because they were sisters. And if Mary had it, why didn't she reach out to Martha? Come on. And we talked about that, being to have that jealous spirit on us. We cover that. And then we hook them and shy it up in the church and the hand, and you know, and and in the praise and worship team everywhere else. But don't, please do not down Martha. Yeah, because everybody got to serve sometimes. Yeah, that's true. If you if now I'm gonna say, well, Mary, you can't, you could have came out that put that tablecloth on that table and your sister. Yeah, you could have helped her. That's true. So that's what made me think about it. And if you want to read about the story, it's in Luke 10. So uh it's a powerful story, y'all. It is. There's a whole bunch of meat behind that. Yeah. So that's why I uh thank you, June, for allowing me to answer that question because that's very important. And y'all gave some excellent. I didn't hear from you too much.

Speaker 2 33:11

She said her answer was perfect.

Speaker 4 33:12

Yeah, ours was the perfect answer.

Speaker 1 33:14

Like, yeah, it was just yeah, yeah. You're hungry, you know, at the feet of Jesus. That's a beautiful thing, though.

Speaker 3 33:24

Hunger, and like I said, I've struggled with like obedience and discipline, and this is God. Me laying right here is God teaching me those things, and it's applying to more than just spending time with him because now I baby, I'm at home. I don't got time. I'm gonna be at home. I'm in my Bible, read my Bible, trying to figure out what he's saying to me.

Speaker 8 33:46

Right.

Speaker 3 33:47

Because it's a difference between listening to a sermon and getting a sermon from a pastor and what he's trying to say through a pastor. But when God speaks to you, he's gonna speak to you about what you're going through. That's right. And I think a lot of people get that twisted too. You go to church and you hear a word, well, he got the word for a whole church, but God got a word for you. That's right. That's right. So it's just like, you know, once you spend that time and you just in it like that, like laying at the feet and just receiving that. It's amazing. It's amazing. God will wake me up and be like, go to such and such, such and such, such and such. And I'm like, this don't even exist. And I try to put it together in the head, like, work. Okay, you want me to go here? Let me go there. Like, it's just he he ordered your steps. Yes, good. Yeah, he's gonna be able to do it.

Speaker 5 34:30

He gently chats. He orders he'll sway you. Yes, he said, with love and kindness, have I drawn you anyway? So why not? You might as well. Well, what else were you gonna be doing at two o'clock in the morning? I tried to get up. Right. You was sweep. Yeah, I need watchmen on the wall. Tonight I just selected my watchmen. Yeah, sometimes it be so crazy for me. Like, you ever just been called or picked for something, even outside of church? And you like, me? Yeah. Like, cool. I didn't think I qualified for that. Me, you know, but all these other folks qualify, but they done picked you, right? Yeah. So then you're like, okay, I don't know what I'm saying enough for, but I guess all right. Don't be like, you find that out later. You find it out later. And when you are obedient to that, sometimes God'll tell me, get up two, sometimes three in the morning. I'm like, let me grab my journal. Because I know you bet. And sometimes I'm not always obedient to doing that. And guess what? I can't get no sleep until I do what he said. Because I'm I'm on a different realm and different level of my coming up. So that's stuff you used to get away with when you was just the baby. But you can't do the work now. I'm sorry that I step on your baby toe. The pink those assignments come with some, they they come with weight, and we may not understand it. But you know, just like Martha and Mary, they didn't understand the full assignment they had. Yeah. They just thought that was a they knew it was Jesus, but they didn't know the magnitude. The magnitude of who Jesus was. When that thing got blown out, the kids like, you the messiah? You love the Lord. You need one. You okay, we have a place for you to sleep in. There's a a different revelation with each new new becoming of the the characteristics that you find out that God possesses in qualities, right? Because God is also a God of love, but he's also a man of war. He's also a man of obedience, but he can also cause you. Hey, nope, don't go that way, go that way. So there's, he's just so unorthodox. And I keep using that word because I do believe in this time that we're in, that we're looking at each other and we all don't look like maybe we should be called to do whatever it is that we're doing. And it ain't gonna look the same. No, it ain't gonna never look the same. No, no. And some of us is gonna have to go into some jungles, yeah. Some of us are international sitting at this table and supposed to be going out of the country.

Speaker 36:54

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Speaker 5 36:58

Speaking and then parting and doing the and the the the the one of the fun facts about me and the reason why I go so hard for God. I take public transportation to work and I see a lot of stuff. I catch the Metro Link at the St. Charles Rock Road. Child, if it'd be like a movie. And sometimes I just be wanting to hide because I don't want to talk to nobody. I'm like, Lord, I just gotta work. I want to go home. These folks is crazy, smell lick over here, got a gun over there. It'd be a lot of stuff going on. But God still be using me out there. I'm like, now if we just gonna be on the ministry on the corner ministries, just say that. I'm gonna step on the corner and just let them come to me there. But it it doesn't matter. Yeah, send me, I will go. Yeah, that's the mentality that we should have. Even if we ain't got all our gifts figured out, you open your mouth, gotta feel it. You have to stop being afraid to really be who we are, even on jobs and stuff. We'll let a job, we'll let the job put your fucking round. Because they gotta live in a little place. Well, you can't talk about this. You can't talk about you don't know the guy that I got. God said he's witty and clever, so he'll use me in a witty and clever way, and you find that person where they know exactly what I'm talking about. But you can't get it.

Speaker 2 38:14

But the thing is, you still respect the law, and that's the day. That's right. So you we know how to do it, and he'll show us how to do it. He'll put us in a bedroom with somebody. Oh yeah, and you'll find yourself ministering. Oh, yeah, as ministry is wherever you go. Wherever you go, wherever you go, that's right. Wherever you go.

Speaker 4 38:31

So, like I told you all, I am like as old as I am, been church all my life, new to this, still. I called one of my friends, just random. Like I've we grew up together, but they moved back to their hometown when we were teenagers. I called her and I didn't know she was having a bad day. I didn't know what was going on with it. Just something told me to call her. And I said, How you doing? She was like, fine. I said, You sure? She was like, Yeah. So she was like, it's just a whole lot of stuff going on here. Now we're texting at this point. I'm not FaceTiming her, I just text her. And when I said, I just started talking to her, and I told her, I said, I don't know what it is you're going through. I don't know what it is you're seeking, what's been said. But I told her, I said, you know what to do. Put it in God's hands, pray about it, and He will manifest whatever it is that needs to be solved. I can show you the text right now, but I said. Praise God. And she was like, oh my God. She was like, I was not expecting to serve. She said, Well, I'm gonna go ahead and get off this phone, I'm gonna go ahead and cry now. I wasn't expecting to say that. Yeah. But the thing about that is, I just I don't know. Some things that's been happening lately have just been crazy. So you important, you are in the case. And I'm not saying a bad crazy. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

Speaker 5 39:55

You are in school of the spirit. Okay, and I just look sorry, Victoria. It so the the route that you're taking, it ain't there's no GPS, baby. No. Throw it away, get it out your mind. You are gonna literally, like how you say, I don't even know who this person is. Who are you, girl? Mm-hmm. It's because the mirror that you're gonna look in the next time that you go stand fully in it, that ain't you who you looking at. It's the God that has rose himself up in you to change your countenance, change all of that. He's doing an inward gutting out, if it really is. It's just like when you rehab a house. You got some parts of the house you can keep intact where you ain't gotta do no remodeling, but you got other parts of the house. Oh, baby, the floor got to come out, the asbestos got to go, the wood got to go, we're gonna knock this wall out, push that back some, we're gonna measure this, put a window. So that's exactly what's happening to you. There's there's not gonna be an explanation. There's not gonna be a uh, I can put into words what this is. When you get around like people like this, it's just gonna all come forth. You are imparting without permission. Yeah, and you don't need permission. I love it. You don't need the permission. You don't need yeah, and the reason why you don't need permission is because the commission came from God. Yeah, you were commissioned to do it. That's why you don't need the permission. Yeah, now you are in that part of the Bible where it says he who the son has said free is free indeed. So there is no more explanations for how you are, who you are. There is no more explanations for why you're moving the way you move. Yeah, you just go with the flow. Yeah, and sometimes that flow might be rocky and deep, stay in the flow, and sometimes it might just be free-flowing and smooth. Can I say something?

Speaker 3 41:39

I'm sorry. I don't want to cut you off, but what we fail to realize is God is not in our time. It don't matter. God is outside of time looking at you at the end. Okay, he already what he's trying to do. And so what he's gonna do is continue to stretch you. That's right. He's gonna continue to put these things in your in front of you to stretch you, to get you that's right to what he sees at the end. And so we can sit here and be like, oh, I don't want to do it, I'm nervous, I'm scared. He's gonna continue to put you in that same situation over and over and over again until you trust him to do what it is that he's calling you to do. That's right. We can sit here and be like, oh, I'm 36, I'm 59, I'm 39, I'm whatever age. God don't care about none of that. He wants to. And so he's watching, he see, he knows the identity that he got in you. He already knows. So now he's trying to get you to see your potential and your new art. That's all wrong. Seriously. And then the chat get poured back into it because you pour out a lot.

Speaker 2 42:48

Yeah, he can you can handle it now. Yeah, I had to tell, I had to learn this about myself. If he would have given me certain things the day before I wasn't ready, I would have abused it. Oh, baby, say that again. Now that he knows that for real. Now that he knows that he can trust you in certain areas, yes, take it like grace. Yes, he can trust you. He can trust you to help people with him and you. You'll know why you're saying, girl, pray. Did I just tell her to pray? Yeah, but that's how you're gonna do it. Girl, come go to church with me. You know what's gonna happen is the people, you are the example now. Yes, you're gonna keep going and they act like they don't care. Maybe they're watching. Yes. Next thing you gonna you know, they're gonna be calling you and asking you, can they help with you? Because when good things are happening, I wanna know why Victoria got all that going on. Yep. I need to see proof. Yeah, you are becoming the proof. Yep, yes, your whole life. So just know it gets greater later. I'm telling you, right now, you're gonna be in a fight, having Relationship with God is good, but you gotta fight. Yes. So right now, you know, the Holy Spirit getting in you, you don't even know what you're feeling, but He there. Then an enemy on the other side saying, Girl, don't do that. And you somewhere in the middle, like, what do I do? But guess what? You trust in God now. So they yes, you already didn't give it to them. Yeah, you just understanding what their yes means. And it just means changes happen. Yeah.

Speaker 3 44:25

And the Holy Spirit with you everywhere. He with you. He in you right now, and it's moving something in you right now.

Speaker 5 44:32

Because she needs to hear it.

Speaker 3 44:32

And she needs to hear it. Like it's moving in you. And whenever you feel a certain way, Holy Spirit takes over. That's up me and more of you. That's it. And get filled up. God is love. God loves you.

Speaker 2 44:44

When them series start coming, I know that God loves me so much that He is pulling something out of me to put something new in me. So when them series start flowing, let them thank you, God. That's the release.

Speaker 5 44:55

It's a series of prayer as well, right? Yeah, yep. Like I said, y'all at church, they call me the weeping warrior. And that's because when I cannot pray, and and I am an intercessor, but when I cannot, or when God does not give me a word, there is a clarion call that literally, I can't explain the sound. If I ever get in the spirit good enough, yeah, I'm telling you. And it's it and it's something where it's instant. I have seen instantaneous stuff happen before me, and I'm like, Lord, I now you're scaring me now because I don't I don't want to be that great. I don't want to be that powerful, I don't want to have all this authority. But when you were called and chosen, you could be hiding under a rock. Yeah, you could be under a rock, literally. And guess what? He's coming from under that rock to come hit you. You ain't finna hide behind the heels and the rocks, baby. You go, come on, put the alligator skin on now. Now I need you from come over here. You finna go minister to the man that just got done sticking himself over there. Now you I'm gonna use your personality in the beginning. See, he'll start telling you too. The deeper and the depths and the more and more you go in there, he's gonna start telling you, hey, tomorrow ain't gonna be no regular day. I need you to don't wear no heels to work tomorrow. I want you to wear tennis shoes because I'm gonna have you. He'll begin to give you those assignments. And sometimes, like I said, they just right now it's kind of like, where's Waldo? Y'all remember that? Where's Waldo? You open up that thing, you're like looking all around, you're like, I don't see Waldo. But then the moment you're getting ready to close the book, you end up finding Waldo. Oh, there no Waldo. Same thing for the for your spiritual life. It is not by mistake, it is not by accident, it is on purpose in divine timing. So where now what you thought would may have taken you 10 years, whatever goals you have before God, even now, even with your finances, whatever goals you got before him, instantaneous. Instantaneous, walking in favor, walking, bumping elbows or getting positions or walking through doors where you're like, Lord, I've been praying for five years for this. Here it comes in five seconds. That is the abundance of God.

Speaker 2 47:05

You'll find yourself in a yes season. Yes, I've been in a yes season for three years. That respect is something.

Speaker 5 47:12

Yeah, it's cooperation versus compromise. Can I read some of these comments? Yes.

Speaker 47:18

They blow they've men folk, Antoine and Robert is blowing it up. And Rose, uh, Robert says, I'm gonna read a couple of them. God is always cultivating what's needed to be harvest in due season. That's for you. Right now, he didn't say to you, but that's right for you, yeah. And then Antoine, he said, uh another thing that Robert says, seek his face, so his presence will be present. Different levels of anointing, the enemy will lift up his game, he will up his game. Oh, yeah. And Antoine says that he, yes, he can use you even when you don't know, like Jeremiah, he will give you the words and things needed. And Rose says, Oh, Antoine said, I told Keisha God gonna use her. Can't help it. Yeah, and Rose said, My ministry is done in my bedroom. I'm at a place where I can stay to myself because God talks to me so I can talk and minister to others over the phone. God will wake me up to pray late at night. Sometimes I don't even know who I pray for. I will stay in my room at times to keep my peace. This is how I move at this season in my life. There's yes, it don't matter where you are, when or where. Because I'ma tell you, the Holy Spirit was so heavy on me three weeks prior to the conference. That's why I asked y'all what your experience was like. Because the Lord, the Holy Spirit gave me each one of y'all. It's not a mistake why each one of you all are in this studio because I prayed for y'all so and I hadn't talked to you since you were a baby. God is going to use you and me and Victoria. Ate, we sat there in that restaurant and talked for at least two and a half. Yeah. God has something special for you. Yes, and I'm so thankful I'm alone for the ride to witness it.

unknown 49:43

Thank you.

Speaker 49:44

And Ite, he's been using you. He's been using you, and he's got even more great things for you. And Keisha, even though you're just starting, keep in mind I didn't start my walk till I was 55. So you got a heck of a jump on me.

unknown 50:03

Yeah.

Speaker 50:04

So don't give up. Stay in his face. Baby girl, love on Jesus because he loves you. Even though your whoever it is, they're gonna come at you with fiery darts now because the Holy Spirit is speaking through you. And I call it hidden scar tissue. He's cleaning all that out and refilling it with his word. That's why you didn't even realize what you were saying.

Speaker 1 50:35

It wasn't her. And I want to put you Jesus in there and say that I saw it when you came in the room that God have called you. Yes. He has called you for his ministry. So, you know, just just accept it. I believe it. Like Etay said, you know, you you you she's a light. She don't even know. Yeah. She's gonna be a power. And you one of the snipers in the body of Christ. You are too. Snipers. A lot of yeah. And that sniper. And that intercessor. Yeah. So I just I just want to encourage you that, you know, accept your call.

Speaker 3 51:13

Yeah.

Speaker 1 51:14

Because you've been walking in ministry all alone. You just, you know what I'm saying? You just didn't really submit. They always knew you're gonna be able to do it. See what I'm saying?

Speaker 51:22

Yeah.

Speaker 1 51:23

Serving God.

Speaker 51:24

I I'm so sorry. We at the end. I know. I know. I'm so sorry. No, you can't say that. I can't say my notes. You can pray us out though. But well, can I leave this with them? Please do. Write a note for the following. Let me let me finish and then you can end with your uh comments. Okay. We got to have you four back. Amen. We got to. Because I haven't touched the surface on the questions that I have for you, and they're relevant. Yeah, they're relevant for not only you, but for those that are gonna hear this. I'm telling you, you got a calling on your own.

Speaker 1 52:10

Come on, you've been chosen. Sorry about it.

Speaker 52:14

You already know what God has called you to do. And Victoria, you're gonna be just as much of a powerhouse as Keisha is. Your daddy's gonna, you're gonna be checking your daddy in the word. Yeah. But uh bless God. Okay, go ahead, Pat. And Pat is gonna end us out in prayer. All right. Thank y'all for you.

Speaker 1 52:38

I just wanted to say if y'all wanted to write a note to the father, uh what would you say to him? But y'all don't have to.

Speaker 52:44

Oh, you asking questions. We can't do it.

Speaker 1 52:46

I see I see I'm gonna say the note. But okay, well, Fox. Okay, hold on. Father God, we just thank you right now, Lord God. Help me, Lord Jesus.

Speaker 52:59

No questions.

Speaker 4 53:00

She turns her head real quick.

Speaker 53:03

She's gonna say, No, I'm gonna ask a question. You're gonna close.

Speaker 1 53:13

We just want to thank you right now for these powerful women of God. We ask, oh God, for your mighty blessings upon them, oh God. I thank you right now because you're strengthening their lives right now, Father God, as they maintain, oh God, the consistency and the relationship with you, Father God. Help them, Lord God, to overcome every challenge that tried to come against them in the name of Jesus, oh God. Help them right now in the name of Jesus, oh God, to just grow, oh God, in their faith. Yeah in the name of Jesus. Give them every opportunity, oh God, to be a witness for you. Yes. And most of all, God, humble them in your sight, oh God. In the name of Jesus, while you're strengthening them, oh God, and why they die daily, oh God, for the work of the ministry. I thank you right now, Father God, for this place, oh God, Vent 101. I thank you right now for June, Lord God. Thank you. I pray that you would strengthen her, oh God, and establish her feet. And I thank you right now, Father God, for your divine direction in each and every one of these women's lives. I pray this in Jesus' name. Amen.

Speaker 54:28

Thanks for tuning in. We look forward to having you back next week.